This girl is incredibly bored, so enjoy another 99 questions!! XOXO

Hello Ladies, Gentlemen and Non Binaries,


I'm really bored so enjoy some more knowledge about my boring old life :)

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? I didn't spend all that time in the closet to have the doors shut!!

2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? What makes you think i can afford a hotel in the first place!?

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? Out, in case i need to get up in the middle of the night. 

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Who the fuck even does that!?

5: Do you like to use post-it notes? My arm is substantially cheaper...

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? A motherly habit i unfortunately indulge in...

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? A big bear, i could probably out run it.

8: Do you have freckles? Quite a few

9: Do you always smile for pictures? NOPE, i tend to pull stupid faces and look like a serial killer...

10: What is the most annoying thing? Inequality, racism, pretty much everything.

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Nope, I've more important things to be doing with my time!!!

12: Have you ever peed in the woods? I'm pretty sure every human has once in their life

13: What about pooped in the woods? Something not ever human has done in their life

14:Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? I always have music around me!!

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils? Another habit i unfortunately indulge in...

16:How many people have you slept with this week? I've never slept with anyone, period!!

18:What is your Song of the week? Just Tonight, by The Pretty Reckless

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Of course it is!!! what type of question is that!???

20:Do you still watch cartoons? All the time...

21:Whats your least favorite movie? 50 shades of domestic abuse...

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? Telling you would defeat the "hidden" aspect of hidden treasure!!

23:What do you drink with dinner? Water, I'm a peasant...

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in? The bin, I don't like them

25:What is your favorite food? Tuna and Sweetcorn Pilaf

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love? The Help, The Green Mile

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you? I've never kissed or been kissed in a relationship

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout? No, but i missed out on the opportunity to be both...

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Yeah, but probably in a metaphorical, Laverne Cox type of way.

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? I don't have anyone to write to.

31:Can you change the oil on a car? Yes, i spent a year as a mechanic

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket? I don't drive...

33:Ever ran out of gas? Does Attack on Titan count?

34:Favorite kind of sandwich? One of the breaded variety, i don't have a there is only one kind right??

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? I don't eat breakfast so i wouldn't know...

36:What is your usual bedtime? Whenever i pass out from sleep deprivation 

37:Are you lazy? Of course i am!!

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? A woman, any excuse to be one was eagerly met before i came out.
39:What is your Chinese astrological sign? An ox, the exact opposite of me in real life...

40:How many languages can you speak? 1 fluently but i know fragments of other languages

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope

42:Which are better Lego's or Lincoln logs? Lego's, the fuck are Lincoln logs!?

43:Are you stubborn? Not really, i'm quite a push over to be honest.

44:Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Never watched them.

45:Ever watch soap operas? Contrary to popular belief, i do in fact have some standards.

46:Are you afraid of heights? Nope, just afraid of falling

47:Do you sing in the car? Nope, people don't appreciate my none existent talent!!

48:Do you sing in the shower? I appreciate my none existent talent!!

49:Do you dance in the car? I value my life and the life of others

50:Ever used a gun? We actually have sense here in Britain...

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? About 2 months ago, i had my picture taken as a girl for the schools computers 

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy? Musicals are beautiful!!

53:Is Christmas stressful? Life in general is stressful

54:Ever eat a pierogi? Nope, but after a google search i want to!!

55:Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple

57:Do you believe in ghosts? Nope

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? That's part of living sweety

59:Take a vitamin daily? No, i only take vitamins when my doctor prescribes them because my body is falling apart

60:Wear slippers? Nope

61:Wear a bath robe? Once again, Nope

62:What do you wear to bed? Underwear and a T-shirt

63:First concert? A Soley-Mourning concert i believe

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Never been to any of them!!

65:Nike or Adidas? I have fashions sense Honey...

66:Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos i guess?

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Salted Peanuts are life (Unless you have an allergy)

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? That's french right?

69:Ever take dance lessons? I've done a couple in performing arts.

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? Whatever the fuck they want to do!

71:Can you curl your tongue? One of my few skills...

72:Ever won a spelling bee? We don't have them here in Britian

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy? Nope, only when i'm sad

74:Own any record albums? Quite a few

75:Own a record player? My mom does

76:Regularly burn incense? No, i just have room scented thingys 

77:Ever been in love? I've had crushes on people but it's never gone anywhere

78:Who would you like to see in concert? The Pretty Reckless or Iron Maiden

79:What was the last concert you saw? A concert by my friends band Stone Wolf

80:Hot tea or cold tea? Depends upon the Tea?

81:Tea or coffee or hot chocolate? Tea and Hot Chocolate

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles? Sugar (Snickerdoodle sounds like a word used by children when talking about sex)

83:Can you swim well? I like to think so

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Most people can.

85:Are you patient? Fairly

86:DJ or band, at a wedding? Presuming i find someone willing to marry me!? I'd probably have my aforementioned friends band play

87:Ever won a contest? I won a group music competition in year nine.

88:Ever have plastic surgery? Not yet, but i probably will when i transition. (FFS and all that)

89:Which are better black or green olives? I despise olives!!

90:Can you knit or crochet? I can Knit decently and i can barely Crochet

91:Best room for a fireplace? The living room in my opinion

92:Do you want to get married? I would very much like to 

93:If married, how long have you been married? I haven't even had a relationship yet alone marriage!!

94:Who was your High School crush? I have had several, besides i'm too shy to say.

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? No because i'm 17 years old!!

96:Do you have kids? Nope

97:Do you want kids? I would like to have some, but due to my lack of a womb and my desire to be rid of my current parts it seems somewhat out of the question, much to my dismay...

98:Whats your favorite color? PURPLE!!

99:Do you miss anyone right now? My friends

And now you know some more stuff about me, much to your dismay i'm sure, 
Anyway, until next time, this is Your Friendly Neighborhood Transsexual Signing off. XOXO

I worry more than a mother and i can't even have children, such a weird scenario, eyy XOXO

Hello Ladies, Gentlemen and Non-Binaries,

I want you to define success in your head for me, visualize your idea of success, what is it? If your like me it might be great grades, a fast car and an extraordinarily large house. That tends to be societies idea of success and naturally that has become the norm to you. Of course this is not this is not the case with everyone but please bare with me for the time being.

We, and the world, seem to have this key idea of success in our mind. A be all, end all style of life if you will. I think this is the wrong idea of success that leads to negative cognition's within ourselves. This is not to say that there is anything wrong with fast cars or huge houses but i, personally think this to be the incorrect goal in life for the mass populace of this earth.

Personally i think success should not be quantified. I know what your thinking "This girl is mad!!! Success makes us feel great, why would you deprive people of that". Okay, fair play. Success does make us feel incredible in the end, no arguments there, but how much sorrow is there before the happiness?

I'll use an example, perhaps you feel that you aren't doing well at school, you feel as though your grades won't be very good. This will likely lead to worry, will i get that uni placement? what will i do with my life? what will my family think? These thoughts can lead to very dark places, all because we have this key idea of success embedded within our minds. Well i would suggest we forget about that. So what if you don't do well in our grades. So what if your family is pissed. The world will keep on turning no matter what.

I thinks success is far simpler than that, all the ideations of huge houses great grades, fancy uni's and the pride of the family resting on your shoulders. I think the definition of success is you.
If you'll forgive the very cliche line i'll explain what i mean. There is no arguing that fact that you live on this earth, the fact that you exist cannot be debated. Boom, there's some success for you right off the bat, you were the fastest sperm!! Good on you honey!! Think of all the things you've done in your life for me, this can be anything and everything.

I'll use myself as an example. I've gone through primary school, and secondary school. My grades in both were very mediocre and average for the human race. I've battled several mental disorders (i always talk about these, sorry) and I've finished my first year in A-Levels, i await my results with dread, and I've begun m transition from Male to Female. These are the most major aspects of my life and I've left out a lot of details about things but you get the gist of things.
Do i have wonderful grades? Nope. Do i have people swooning at my passing because i'm so wonderful? Fuck no. The point i'm getting at is all this stuff is irrelevant in terms of success.

You are a living breathing person, correct? Everyday you wake up and you do your thing. Yes you may feel bad about yourself and your life but let me tell you why you are a success. You may hate yourself above anything else, you may think yourself worthless but let me tell you something. To someone in this world you are the greatest thing to happen!! Everyday somebody lives because you make them happier than anything in the world. This person lives because you exist!!!
If that doesn't make you a success i don't know what does!? How incredible must you be to have such a HUGE impact on somebodies life? Go you, while you may feel as though you've achieved nothing, you've actually achieved incredible things!! Just because society says it's irrelevant because it hasn't affected the masses, doesn't stop it from being major!! So while you may feel irrelevant, while your family may devalue, just remember that you are the WORLD to somebody and that, my beautiful friends, makes you the biggest success on the face of this earth!!

So just remember whenever you feel down, that somebody lives for your smile, your laugh fills them with warmth and your mere presence couldn't make them any happier. You are the light in their world and that is enough for you to get out their and live your life to the full.

My friends this is your Friendly Neighborhood Transsexual, telling you to get out there and 

Fucking Slay

XOXO

Bone Pain and Bullshit - Wednesday's Child

... It's not even a Wednesday




It's literally been the longest time, and I apologize for that. So, an update on my life would probably be a good idea.

Basically, in the weird drain-circling spiral that is my life, I've done three very important things with my life.

 - Cried more times in the space of one week than I have done in the past seven years.
 - Started Sons of Anarchy
 - Gone to the Doctors (again) about the deteriorating stability of my bones

The bone thing I'll get to first. Since November last year I've been getting periods (hehe) of bone pain, ranging from mild aches to 'rip my heart out to distract me please'. It started out as pain during the night, and was solely in my right calf. (Heads up, googling bone pain will give you the results of bone cancer don't do it.) Then the pain started to happen in my collarbone, fingers, both legs and up my arms. (And one time in my foot but I'd been wearing heels so I'm still not sure about that one.) The pain is also becoming not only a night time surprise, but a day time joy. Kind of like a weird younger sibling that won't leave you the fuck alone, and pops up at the worst possible moments. (Point of reference - mid conversation at Belle's birthday, I suddenly start hissing and grabbing at my leg, and have to excuse myself for ten minutes to swear to myself and take painkillers in the kitchen.)

However, for the most part, the pain's a you-get-used-to-it sort of thing. Up until two weeks ago. My left hand had been hurting for a few minutes before dinner, but I thought nothing of it until my mum handed me my plate. And I nearly dropped it. Because holding anything, or moving any of my fingers, sent searing pain through my hand.

About two or three months ago I went to the Doctors, and was told to get a blood test to check for Rheumatoid Arthritis. RA is a an autoimmune disease wherein my body goes batshit and breaks down, resulting in joints needing replacing, reduced mobility, and pain. The tests were negative (thank God), and so the other option was a Vitamin D deficiency. (Which is interesting because my bloodwork was clear for anything like that.) So, I was given some pills which have literally not done shit.

So that's that. Pain, which has taken up most of my life for the past six weeks or so.

What's next? Oh shit yeah... The whole crying thing.

Here's a little pointer thing I want to say before I continue. Family. You do not have any obligation to unconditionally love your family. In fact, if your family fuck up or do something wrong, you have every right to dislike them.

I'm a point and click case of familial discontent. There's more than one member of my family I can't stand to be in a room with more than five minutes, and one is my uber-Catholic grandmother.

Being the youngest person in my family, I have an awful lot expected of me. There are literally two people in my family who are under the age of eighteen. Me, and my cousin. My cousin is going to attend the London School of Economics. Which, y'know, well done him and all but... This is a very academic family (supposedly - I got into an argument over the definition of 'humanities' with my Grandmother...) And with him going to LSE, there's now quite a hefty amount of pressure on me to do equally as well. Which I'm not.

Two weeks ago I ended up getting into a full blown argument over university placements, grades, and my lack of motivation which resulted in me crying (angry tears. tears of anger.) and refusing to go back to see her. As you can imagine this has resulted in certain tensions between me and other members of my family. So that was crying episode number one.

The second one involved me clinging desperately (I think, I was pretty fucking drunk, and my memory is a little hazy) to one of my friends and crying hysterically. (Once again... I think.) About several different fears and such. However, in the weird haze of that evening, I do remember clearly saying the words 'Fucking Slay.' to a certain friend.

Anyway, on to much better news. I have a new love. Sons of Anarchy.

It's a very serious show about very serious biker men who do very serious things and totally do not buy a porn studio in the beginning of the second season, or feed crank to Dobermans, or steal ambulances, and clearly always make informed decisions.

The show has a mixture of violence, depth, humour and sweet music to make it incredibly enjoyable. It follows the life of Jax Teller, the step-son of the leader of SAMCRO (Sons of Anarchy Redwood Original), who is unsure about the violent path the club is headed. He discovers in the pilot episode the memoirs of his father, who originally founded the club, and discovers the original plans for the club before his mother and Step-Father changed things.

And in the past week I have discovered and important fact.

I love Tig Trager.

In fact, I love all of the main characters. But despite the fact that if I met Tig in real life I'd really seriously be terrified, he's very quickly become one of my favourites. He's also the most violent member of the club, and is often called on to take out some of the messier tasks. Which can result in some messy repercussions.

I'm also just gonna leave this gif of Theo Rossi here because reasons.


So that's about all from me kids. And as always, stay safe and remember,

I'm with you till the end of the line Folks. ♥

Woman Crush of the Week: Madison Davenport
Man Crush of the Week: D.J Cotrona
Song of the Week: John the Revalator 
Film of the Week: From Dusk Till Dawn